love story of a girl with a dream and a boy with perfection.

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She was a girl full of dreams , he was a man of perfection.

She was on one side love for years and closed herself in a box for the same, he had his bad experiences of love thus closed himself in box for the same.

Once they decided they need to give them-self chance and  should move them self out of their boxes, Destiny was watching them and planed their weird meet.

They came in contact, share their loneliness, share their pain, share their laughter, made each other alive.

Then one day boy asked girl not to leave him ever, girl felt Aww and thought till now every one has left her on her own but he is asking means he will never leave her and decided that day, that will do anything for this guy  so that she never need to leave him nor he to her.

Then one other day boy said he is falling for her, girl was confused not sure ,  but after giving a lot thought she decided and confesed her feelings too. Love in the air started, beauty of life started touching both, promises were made, dreams were seen.

In the era of electronic world without meeting actually, they were living a actual life with each other, totally dependent on each other, life was looking beautiful for both.

Then one again boy decided something he decided to take next step , he decided to travel all the distances and take the girl along with him with all respect, he ask her to to talk to her family and arrange their meet, this time girl who taken all decisions earlier agree for it without giving it a second thought. She has no questions for him she trusted him blindly but she sees boy having lots of questions for her so she kept asking him is he sure for the greater step to be taken. Boy assure her he has no doubt but if she has she can think. Girl too having no doubt but still thinking about the complicity of the relationship gave boy his freedom to leave whenever he wants.

And now the girl took the step with all guts told her family what’s going in her life, father being bit conservative and over protective didn’t took very well what her daughter said to him , fight started in a family , ugly things started happening but girl kept fighting for her dream , she keep requesting him to meet the boy and then decide but decision was made in her father’s mind. Might be time would change them with this hope she kept her struggle on.

The day came , boy came ,inspite of trying her best girl fail to make her father agree, yet she gave boy all her time, they spend the beautiful time together inspite of all the tension going around. But boy was perfectionist he can’t take the imperfection of her girl along. Before leaving he said they need to think as he can’t see hope from her father , but girl knew her Mr. Perfectionist has saw some ugly scar in her . she got moist eyes while whaving him bye for she came to know in her heart that it’s the final bye..

Sooner the day came when boy made his final decision that it’s better for them to get apart from each other, girl wonder where she failed the boy who asked her once never to leave him, how come he leaving her on her own again. But decision was made. And giving the boy what he wants once again she with all her heavy heart and all the strength she behold she said him good bye..

~Sneha

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My strange relationship with Almighty and Gratitude for yet bestowing his blessings on me.

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Geting ready for work seeing myself in mirror and i felt something , i felt grateful to God for he given me so much without asking. I wonder why ? My relationship with Almighty is strange and sometime hard for people to understand. Even sometime people consider me Atheist. I dn’t feel offended though i just wonder do i ?

Being Hindu we have so many rituals, so many ways of showing our love to God but I hardly knew few, I hardly follow few, i rarely fast, i rarely go to temples.Daily going to God place never came in my routine. Even if on my way to work I pass to some Temple, Church or Gurudwara and I feel the calling to stop and pay the visit I shut it and say will get late to work that will not be good and just say short prayer of mine while passing his holy places. Never gave lord special time. Was God happy with me for me dedicated more to my work and life he bestowed to me than to him. I might had not shown my love to him , my faith to him but I never disrespected him and tried my best never to any of his child, I simply get moving what he bestowed me with , I simply went giving what i can . My love, my care, my understanding, my best helping hand to who so ever I met in this life. I believed in serving and relishing his creation more than him .Atheist or not i dn’t know. But i tried to find him in all.

And seeing myself in mirror as a strong , beautiful lady and with all these thoughts playing in my mind i wonder what i did for the lord that he bestowed me with the beauty of a lady to relish, with the brain to b wise, with the power of patience and understanding towards other , with the strength to digest all the pain and enjoy the solitude, with the little weird yet most beautiful family and friends . I dn’t remember anything special i had done for the Lord yet he bestowed me. Rembering all this i felt so thankful and sorry @ the same time not for not being a great lover to lord but if unknowingly i had done something which he dose’nt wanted me to do, had hurt any of his child, in short if unknowingly i had  ever failed Almighty with the purpose he has sent me on this earth.

~Sneha

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Remembering one of my old poem and my crazy days

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years back i wrote this when i first saw my favorite bike on road which was rare to see . That time i was crazy about Harley Davidson . This poem to be confessing was not only inspired by HD but also by my crush on someone . Reading lots of beautiful poems today inspired me to share it here.

“cursng the moment why my eyes got stuck on you while you were busy playing wid sunshine nd dust, you virile , you audacious….

wondering why you are such an eye candy for me ,, you dream of adventure , you dream of life…..

hating de way you stole my heart and now you playing with it ,, you playful, you dusty beauty….

knowing can’t owe you but always dreaming of you ,, you dream stalker , you zest of life….”

~Sneha

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Man, woman and science of their relationship

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Sitting ,eating , working and along with all other daily chores I am fighting  with conflicts of thoughts occurring in my  mind which further  stucked me with some hypothesis and that gave me answers of lots of things today.

Everyone wants partner in their life but all have some and other motive for the same. So watz a science of man and woman and their relationship. I think basicaly there are two types of women. One wants man in her life for love and other wants man in her life for money . Same way there are two types of men. One wants woman in his life for love and other one for physical needs. Now the woman wanting only love and man wanting the same in life seems to be of same frequency and a good match but rarely they get along reason might be for the woman wanting only love means she is independent financially and at her own a bit kind of strong one . So might be cn’t take dominancy in her life like her man telling what to do what not to do, and Man wanting only love might be a sensitive man and bit insecure always fearing of loosing love he get so might have trust issues too thats why he might try to keep his woman according to him and this may lead to arise in conflicts and leave them apart. Now man wants woman only for physical needs and woman wanting man only for money both seems to be materialistic hence same frequencies and seems to be good together but man here seems to b more space loving ,  practical hence may not like keep fulfilling his woman finacial needs at his loss. At same woman might b insecure abt his man as knowing his nature and not wanting to loose her comfort provided by her man so she might try to hold him tight, control him and all this might raise conflicts resulting in aparting them.

Now when man wanting love and woman wanting money when they come along , Man  keep giving woman what she wants and woman keep doing what his man wants as she is dependent on him here both are secure with what they want and both dominancy work for each other hence though of different frequencies both succeed in geting along with eachother. And same way man wanting only pysical and woman wanting only love when they come along,  Man give his woman complete freedom and space as he don’t have fear of losing her as not dependent on her emotionally and woman being busy with her work and loving the space and love she gets from her man keep giving what her man wants and along keep giving the space he needs. Here both get secure with their needs and hence inspite of differences in their frequencies they get along as space thing work for them here.

So actually The man and woman relationship is not that complicated and neither a rocket science but yha bringing different frequencies along together @ starting is a tuff job 😉

~Sneha

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Females love butterflies, why ?

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I love butterflies and always wonder why ? what’s in it which make females love this insect so much. Well my reason is i love it for the wings and colours it has . Bt again in my assumption only insect which is loved so much by females why ? what so special?

Do all females all over world are in same shell in some or other way that all fall in love with same creature. Like me do all aspire for their wings ,do all aspire to see different colours of world with their wish, see and spread all colours of life. For i strongly believe females are blessed with lots of beautiful life colours in them sadly they are ask to behold them , we all know females love for colours is it because of the same, the colours they behold within make them choose same to express themself in silent . Back to topic , Why butterflies only ? does beauty attract or beauty with wings ? If this creature would have been love of all men  answer would be simple beauty with wings 😉 for they fall for outer beauty and love to play game of  running behind things.  But females are different they never fall for something on it’s outer look and hate playing games and run after anything. Then what’s in this insect which connect all the ladies in falling for it ? Does what we all aspire for ourself and find that in that tiny creature make us all fall for it.. Strange…

~Sneha

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Delusion of accepting new changes and leaving old behind.

All of sudden life seems to b changing it’s routien, i m not sure to b happy or sad for it, i m in total delusion. I want to enjoy dis new changes but it costing lot to me. I m going to resign next month, frm next month i won’t b geting ready going to hospital, taking rounds, giving morning smiles to patients. No morning drive enjoying morning life @ road. Bt again this was something i wanted , i signed myself for it . so when now the changes are happening why i m scared to lose wat i was having and worrying how i wl b blending in new atmosphere. But then again i think itz human geting scare of new things and still wanting them. I m scared of loosing my comfort zone @ which i m right now. Then new place, new ppl , new life they too will b providing so much to me (hope so) if not much will surely take me bit away from pressure of marriage i m burden wid @ home. I know my parents are not wrong about it but y go with such a big thing for which i feel i m not ready.

I will miss my family , my work for sure but this is something i need for my personal growth, i need to move out from my nest now. I m seeing weird expressions in ppl eyes who know i m leaving, they all bit depended on me and i m on them too. I dn’t know this is my necessity or my only option. As life demands moving on and frm past 3&1/2 yr i m stuck @ same not growing, not moving just stuck so in delusion chages are good or bad ? was stucking, being consistence is good ? or seeing ,trying and experiencing new ?  but whatever this is,  this is choosen by me and I think by God too for me. I simply wish and ask God to  give strength  to  me to move on this path with all patience and faith for life. May new things make me more better wid myself and wid this world.  Huhu finger cross…

( i m leaving my home town for further studies three yr course far away frm here, giving all my savings too it, and my job too , wondering what if it took all and turn out not good for me , bt datz wat life is all about taking risk and trying new callings )

Sneha

Syrian kid taught how weak human race is.

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It has been days of syrian kid news and that innocencyng lying dead on beach has disturbed each soul according to me. But i was wondering what we as human has achieved , this ? We need identity to live , to have basics of life. And this identity is so cheap that could be played by any political hand. Aren’t animals more secure and free then human these days. They are allow to live where ever they want, race their progenies any where they feel safe for them, there is no border for them .where human race bounded in so many lines that crossing any line chossing any way of survival lead them to risk their life.Are we really growing or ??

The laws we made for society, the religion there to keep human in line of being right or wrong. Y all falling apart ? Y the greed of man surviving and damaging his race ? Y the faith is shaking itz root ? Y human forget his basic motto to survive and let all other of his race to survive with same dignity ? Y his motto of survival turn in greed of dominating others ? Y human is the only race enemy of his own race ? Y we devided in so many different forms that we forget that @ first we all are human , species with finest brain and heart to serve, but forgeting the prime , human get busy in serving the secondary ,the caste, religion,all means dividing human in one or  other forms. Y the secondary ,greed of dominating is served more than primary serving the man kind… All these questions have only one purpose to open eye and save human race from killing each other & to stop making surviver of own species tough… May humanity rise in each heart of human..

~Sneha

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day to celebrate teaching of all teacher’s and birthday of lord Krishna teacher of world.

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I m so glad to celebrate janmastmi and teacher’s day on same day…so happy to celebrate the teachings of all my teacher’s and b’day of lord with his great  teachings.. Lord Krishna who taught me and whole world science and philosophy of life, who taught us the philosophy of Karma, who gave us the courage to live life by following the righteous path shown by our heart, who taught us to b believer, who show us the meaning of friendship & love, who taught us to b down to earth and never feel shy in serving others,  and there’s a lot and lot  taught by our lord Krishna by his teachings and his living ( ofcourse cn’t write or summaries Geeta here 😉 )

I find him the most lively and practical lord in whole mythology.Has it been not his teachings then how world has been fearing his deeds ? has he had not taught devotion of love would world be knwing the meaning of love? Has he had not taught the art of living with friends , would world be knowing it ? Has he had not choosen to guide the lost the right path would world be knowing the meaning of guidance ? His life, His philosophy, his teachings, his lessons all gave us courage to live our life happy and in a right way.

~Sneha

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